Hey Mom!

Hey Mom! Well first of all, I need to say a huge thank you for all the support and kind words I received after my l eaving the game  post went up.  As far as updates are concerned, I sort of feel like I'm in the middle of an awkward break-up.  Sometimes I am really excited for what's next and sometimes I sit on the couch in sweatpants and cry because I thought what we had was special and that we were going to be together forever <--- imagine a whiny voice with a few broken sobs.  Also for comedic purposes you could also imagine some heavy mascara running down my face and a five gallon bucket of ice cream, this is obviously not the reality because it's allergy season so I don't eat dairy or wear makeup. And in very slightly related news I got a job working at gym.  Which brings me to my next point... STOP PEEING ON EVERYTHING!  I don't know what is in their pre workout but I swear I find pee everywhere except in the toilet.  It's like working at a daycare

Hey Mom! So if you haven't read part one you can click here Last time I talked about getting to a place where I needed to decide if athletics were still for me, today is all about what governed my decision making. I would like to make a distinction between a choice and a decision.  I made the choice not to return to Manitoba.  I made the choice to transfer schools.  I made the choice to stop playing basketball.  I decided to be happy.  A decision encompasses a series of choices and accepting the consequences of those choices... I accept that it is for now It most likely means I'll never play for a university again.  It doesn't mean I'm done with the game, there is still lots of time for me to watch and play and coach.  I love basketball.  I love playing defence.  I love it when I shoot and just  know  it's going in.  I love it when the net curls in on itself for half a second when the ball swishes through it.  I love feeling like I'm flying when I go i

Hey Mom! Despite the fact that I have 3 seasons of eligibility left, I am no longer playing university basketball.  In my journey to decide what was right for me I noticed there is literature for parents whose kids want to quit sports but nothing for high level athletes wondering if it's time to walk away from their respective sport.  So here I am, an athlete, giving you all the reasons I have made this choice.  In this post all I want to talk about is how I got to the point where I needed to decide if I could keep playing. I was unhappy.  Over my basketball career, I've been a bench player, 6th man and starter.  I've had losing seasons, winning seasons and in between seasons.  I've had wonderful teammates and coaches as well as played on teams that well...weren't.  I've played in 3 different post-secondary conferences over three years.  All these changes, the extreme highs and lows, the fantastic people I've met and the people I wish I never had.