Time for a piece of humble pie… actually just leave the whole thing I'll need seconds and most likely thirds
Hey Mom!
Time for a little real talk. While I don't believe in new year's resolutions I do believe in looking in the mirror and thinking I am the worst person in all humanity. And that's exactly what I did today. Over the holidays I got so wrapped up with what I thought I needed, how I wanted to spend my time, things I did and did not wanted to do. Me, me, me, I, I, I… The worst part is I didn't even realize I was doing it, I thought I was entitled to my actions.
School is harder than I thought
Basketball isn't turning out the way I wanted
I don't get to see every single person I know from Alberta over the holidays
So my holidays are shortened because I am playing basketball and getting some of my post secondary education paid for… poor freaking me. In hindsight I feel so pathetic, it's like I morphed into an ungrateful, entitled brat.
So why am I telling you this? Well because I don't want to type this out, I don't want to admit the fact that I tainted my own Christmas break with my own bad attitude. I treated some members of my family badly for no justified reason. I suck. And now that this is permanently engrained in my memory I can wake up tomorrow and do better.
This uncomfortably segues into my resolution that just so happens to land around January 1… Make it worth it!
All the time I spend away from my family should be worth it. Even the bad days. The days I don't want to try because trying hasn't led to success yet. I wouldn't be here if my time wasn't valuable and I wouldn't miss home if I did value the time of my family and friends. So in 2014 I want to make every second I spend away from my loved ones worth something.
That is all.
Time for a little real talk. While I don't believe in new year's resolutions I do believe in looking in the mirror and thinking I am the worst person in all humanity. And that's exactly what I did today. Over the holidays I got so wrapped up with what I thought I needed, how I wanted to spend my time, things I did and did not wanted to do. Me, me, me, I, I, I… The worst part is I didn't even realize I was doing it, I thought I was entitled to my actions.
School is harder than I thought
Basketball isn't turning out the way I wanted
I don't get to see every single person I know from Alberta over the holidays
So my holidays are shortened because I am playing basketball and getting some of my post secondary education paid for… poor freaking me. In hindsight I feel so pathetic, it's like I morphed into an ungrateful, entitled brat.
So why am I telling you this? Well because I don't want to type this out, I don't want to admit the fact that I tainted my own Christmas break with my own bad attitude. I treated some members of my family badly for no justified reason. I suck. And now that this is permanently engrained in my memory I can wake up tomorrow and do better.
This uncomfortably segues into my resolution that just so happens to land around January 1… Make it worth it!
All the time I spend away from my family should be worth it. Even the bad days. The days I don't want to try because trying hasn't led to success yet. I wouldn't be here if my time wasn't valuable and I wouldn't miss home if I did value the time of my family and friends. So in 2014 I want to make every second I spend away from my loved ones worth something.
That is all.
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